Are we desensitized to the concept of death?

To be clear, I don’t mean patient’s death in the ED, I mean the death of relatives and loved ones.

I noticed after recent death of a very close family member whom I care about that my reaction wasn’t what i thought it would be and seemed to me to be “less” than how it should be when I see how other family members and relatives are reacting to the news.

Am not sure if this is because of our field and the amount of exposure we get to dead bodies or it’s just me feeling like this.

What do you think?