Nobody knows how f*cking sad I actually am

If you asked people traits of me, they'd probably say that I'm outgoing and generally a pretty happy person. I'm not. It's an act. I'm not really happy. It's fake. It's a facade. I try to be the way I am in public because I want people to not be where I am mentally. And my real emotions that I'm having of like sadness and burnout just translates into anger which is not what I want to be. I'm not suicidal at all but I'm just really fucking sad and tired.