I wish I was attracted to women

I wish I was attracted to women so bad. As a kid I always had girl crushes but it was only because I completely admired other girls. I’ve never admired a man at least not yet. But with girls it’s just such a freaking oh my god your so cool feeling I get but the sexual attraction is just not there. I would love to be a lesbian and be in a relationship with a women. I feel like the way I feel about women wouldn’t make a heterosexual woman comfortable which is why I have no friends yet. The physical attraction for women is just not there. Crying emoji