Are online arrangements really impossible to find?
I'm a 19f from a pretty small country (population wise), and I've never even heard anyone talking about sugar relationships here. I just always heard about it online and I've always kind of wanted to do it. I even kind of dreamed about it when I was younger but when I became an adult, I realized there was no way for me to really become a SB because there just aren't people like that where I live.
I've been lurking in the online spaces every once in a while and every time the sentiment seems to be that online only arrangements are always scams. I've tried to look for something but that's how it really seems like. It's pretty sad but I understand it too. I'm also hesitant because it's rough online. It's so much riskier for everyone involved.
I like to think I'd be a nice SB even just online, but maybe I'm naive. I know the offline stuff is often a major part of the arrangement. I just like chatting with people and I like to believe there's someone out there who would appreciate that kind of thing. I think I'd value the connection more than any physical aspect anyway, but maybe that's just being friends then. I don't have much experience with romantic relationships so maybe I just don't know enough to know what I'm missing. I'd like to feel like someone's taking care of me, even from afar. Maybe that's not what this is about and I should be looking into an entirely different thing, I'm not sure.
But honestly I've always had this fantasy that there would be someone out there taking care of me like that. Who I could appreciate and kind of look up to even, and who'd make sure I'm well, but not exactly in the traditional relationship sense. Honestly I think the thought seems really cute. I just love the idea of buying something and being able to show it off for the other person. Even if it's simple things like a coffee or something. I don't know why I love that idea so much, but sending someone a picture of the coffee they technically paid for sounds so cute to me. I want to feel thankful for someone, I think that's what it is. The thought of that just makes me feel all giddy for some reason.
Is it really impossible for something like this? I'm not really sure if I'm looking for solutions or reassurance but I think I just want to hear what other people think of my situation because I'm not entirely sure what to make of this. I'm just sad this isn't a thing in my country, it's like I'm doomed from the start.