Left student teaching today.

I’ve been in an incredibly dark place for months and didn’t plan on leaving when i came in this morning. But there was such a dark cloud over me and my mentor was on the verge of failing me. She brought my advisor in and i broke down in tears and told them i can’t do this for 30 years. Both my mentor and advisor were so supportive and comforted me. My advisor gave me contacts to talk to people at my college for other options to still graduate in another field.

It hasn’t sunk in yet completely but I’m so scared. It’s the first time in years i didn’t have a solid plan for my future.

To those in the thick of it right now: remember to do what’s best for you. Some stress is good stress. There will be hard times that will shape you. Whether it makes you a better teacher or make you change direction is both completely beautiful and okay. Do what matters.