How to stop drunk texting ex? 🤦🏼‍♀️

Sober me knows it’s not a good but once I have a drop of alcohol in me, I can’t control myself 🤦🏼‍♀️ - what do I do?

Help. I don’t know what to do. Sober me knows it’s not a good idea to reach out to my ex. I’m the one who ended things with him because as much as I like him, the relationship wasn’t going anywhere & I was getting too attached. We stopped talking for almost 3 months until I got really drunk & messaged him & saw him & ended up staying over (didn’t hookup because I was too drunk). Then a few times after that I had a bit of wine with friends & then called & went over.

I feel stupid because we used to have nice romantic dates and it felt really nice and cute. Now, I’m the one who ended it & now it’s just reduced to just a drunk booty call (my own fault, not his). I found out he’s not seriously dating anyone but he has had a couple booty calls. I don’t know to what extent and if he’s actually dating any of those women or if they truly just are booty calls. Either way, I feel icky being reduced to just a booty call.

I’m mostly just mad at myself because it’s my own fault. I deleted his contact but I know his # by heart. I can’t bring myself to block him. How do I prevent this? Do I just need to stay sober for a few months until I’m a little more over it 😂? I feel so stupid. Sober me KNOWS I shouldn’t and I don’t even want too. Drunk me is an animal that can’t be stopped. I miss him so much. I really don’t want to let go. But I know I have to. I’m just making myself look bad and reducing his value of me.