What to do when God doesn't want you?

How to accept I'll never be one of God's children or be good enough for Christianity so I can move on.

I understand He loves other people and I respect and love that for Him and Them. Yet it's hard to drop God and Jesus.

Even though I'll never be enough for God or Jesus it's hard to find a way to walk away completely because I know it's Him who loves others and believe even if I think I don't.

What did I do to be separated from not only God but the love of people and human connection.