i feel sick but wow

that’s.. it?? that’s the ending? i didn’t know much about berserk but i thought the ending would be happy. (i watched the 1997 anime, i haven’t read the manga yet)

this is the first show that has made me cry in years. the characters were so well written and realistic, their deaths were so sad. the story is just amazing as well. when i finished the last episode i stared at the ceiling for 40 minutes just processing it.

griffith (he is such a complex character with human characteristics) being tortured to nothing and feeling dehumanized to what he was before, how strong and powerful he was, especially being self made, then blaming guts.. seeing judeau fight til death and saving casca.. griffith raping casca just to “get back” at guts? guts and casca not ending up happy together and the rest of the hawks not having a happy ending? everything just becomes hopeless so suddenly. all episodes til the last one felt light.

berserk is such an amazingly written story, but god i thought the ending would be happy but instead it shocked me and made me feel sick.