Had a CO2 laser procedure planned but my abscess burst tonight

Hi,

I finally thought that after 4,5 years of suffering from this I will be able to do a CO2 laser treatment for my recurring Bartholin abscess. I got an abscess on Saturday and on Monday contacted the clinic and had the surgery planned on Wednesday morning. I have to go to another country for this, so the plane tickets are bought, hotel paid, car paid. I called in sick to work and notified my employer about this. (By the way, my employer doesn't seem to understand this health issue I'm dealing with and is checking if I'm not lying. i. e. asking about my appointment date and time, writing constantly how I feel, when I will go to work, who's going to travel with me).

Unfortunately, my abscess opened today at night. Now its 2 am where I live. I'm supposed to get on a plane at 5 am. I had a nervous breakdown after the abscess opened. It usually takes 5 days for it to burst. Now it took only 3. Why??!!! I cannot understand and accept this. I had everything planned and I thought my suffering will be over soon ( I have high hopes for this procedure). I don't think I can handle all of this anymore in a good way. I mean I was literally shaking, trembling and sobbing in the bathroom while squeezing and whipping all of that stuff that came out.

I will still go to see the doctor but it feels a complete waste of money, everyone's time and energy...

I'm beyond sad and feeling hopeless