Im just realizing best period of my life may have been because of hyper fixations

7 years ago was the toughest period for me mental health wise, but at the same time, I never felt so alive.

I’ve spent all this time, trying to understand how I could feel like that at my lowest, compared to every moment since then.

It was fanfiction, anime, and anime music. I slept three hours a night,and stumbled through school, unsuccessfully avoided getting abused, and spent the rest of my time on these three things.

I’ve been trying to recapture that feeling of life ever since, but now I know that’s not how it works.

Edit: everytime I try to tell a story I leave out something important oml