Does the adhd make me?

I spend my days agonizing about all the habits I can’t keep, and then there’s times like these. I’m trying to create a sleep schedule.

I can sleep right now, but I’m just not for some reason. I’m so overwhelmed just staying up, and I don’t understand why I’m still staying up.

There’s always some part of my brain fighting against me, if that makes sense. Is that just normal?

When I take myself too seriously and just start forcing myself, everything gets worse, and then I hate myself a lot for not being able to just do things.

There’s no way this reads coherently, but my question is, to what extent are my struggles because of adhd?